Friday, March 26, 2010

A day she had been waiting for....

One of the best days around the office is when birthparents visit with the adoptive family. The most memorable visits-- and most emotional!-- are when the birthparents have that first visit after/since the placement day. Read below as Jordan shares her words about visiting the adoptive family and the child she placed three months prior.


Driving up to the adoption agency, everything hit me all at once. As my boyfriend and I pulled into the parking lot, I realized exactly what I was doing. The day I had been waiting for, for months was finally here, and I was scared to death. I thought about how hard this was going to be, and that’s when I lost it. I turned to Stephan (birthfather), and told him “I can’t do this.” He reassured me I would be fine, but I wasn’t convinced. I sat in the car crying until my caseworkers came and got me, and told me I needed to go into the house. As I got out of the car, and walked through the door, I saw the little boy who I had been missing so much, and at that moment I felt 100 times better.

After getting over my initial nerves, everything went smoothly, and better than I imagined. I had a great time with Jesse and Jenny, and Stephan and I got to hold and feed Elijah Quinn. We hung out at the agency, and went out for lunch. I felt like Elijah’s parents were part of my family. I got to see how much they loved him, and how awesome they were at being parents. I got to hear Elijah Quinn laugh, and see him smile. It was awesome. I couldn’t of asked for a better visit.

When it was time to leave, I was heart broken. I had already said goodbye to Elijah once, and I didn’t want to do it again. As they walked out the door, I felt like a wreck. I sat down on the couch, and cried as Stephan held me. I felt empty, it was so hard for me to let them leave. After a little while, I was able to think about how well the visit went, and how much I loved seeing Elijah Quinn, even if it was only for a little while. I am so glad I decided to see him. I love having new memories of him, and being able to picture exactly what he looks like in my head. I can’t wait for my next visit.

Jesse, Jenny, Jordan and Stephan with Baby Elijah

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